I have heard over and over and over again that everything in life that happens happens for a reason. I understand that and I have even seen this. I have seen the reasons much later on of what has happened....the problem is, why do we have to hurt so bad when something does change - I want to know the reason for the change right now...I don't want to wait a month or a year or two and then go "OH HEY.....that's why that happened...."
Some changes are going on with me. I am not going to go into detail, but I don't like them and they are causing me a lot of grief and sadness. They are making me doubt my self-worth and doubt who I am in general....I am a mess.
I just wish I knew the reason for all this pain.