Thursday, December 29, 2011

Last year's resolutions and the year in review...

Here are last year's resolutions...

1. drink less soda and more water - CHECK
2. lose 20 lbs - CHECK - I have actually lost 32 lbs
3. be a better mom - I think I have so CHECK
4. play outside with K more - this one is a maybe....we did go to the park more...
5. find peace for myself - CHECK
6. start attending church - not so much

Year in Review....

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
got a divorce

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I kept almost all of them and I MAY make some for this year

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
a few friends had babies

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes, we lost my brother-in-law in April

5. What countries did you visit?
I didn't visit any countries but USA. I did visit a new state however! South Carolina.

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
no debt

7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
04/11/11 - that is the day my BIL passed :(

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I guess losing weight

9. What was your biggest failure?
still not teaching

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
A few minor things...I found out that I have Lupus and they found pre-cancerous cells on my cervix - All is being dealt with and I am feeling VERY healthy!!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
That is a tough one.....I didn't really BUY it but I RENTED an apartment of my very own..

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Kendall! She only had one day the entire 1st semester of 1st grade that she got a mark!

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
The one person who always does....the EX.

14. Where did most of your money go?
GAS :)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Several apartment, my new tattoo, my new man, my new job, my new man :)

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
A few..."Are you Gonna Kiss me or not" by Thompson Square, "Crazy Girl" by Eli Young Band, "Old Alabama" by Brad Paisley, "My Best Days are Ahead of Me" by Danny Gokey

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a)happier or sadder? HAPPIER
b) thinner or fatter? WAY THINNER
c) richer or poorer? RICHER in SOOOO many ways

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
read more books this year...I think I read.....2

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
work HAHA

20. How did you spend Christmas?
I got my monkey back on Christmas day at 11 and we came home and opened presents then went to my mommy's house to spend the day with family!!

21. Did you fall in love in 2011?

22. What was your favorite TV program?
I have a few new ones :) Lizard Lick Towing is one of my favorites!

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don't HATE anyone...but no, the list is the same...I have actually come to peace with the ones that were on this list last year!

24. What was the best book you read?
The Help

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I had the time to REdiscover country music and my love for it!

26. What did you want and get?
a Kindle Fire and happiness

27. What did you want and not get?
the lottery

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Help

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 35. The night before I went to dinner with Liana and all our babies. We went to Asian City and ate at the hibachi. We went to Cold Stone after and just had a great time. On the day of Kendall and I went to the zoo!!! It was the best zoo day EVER!!

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
honestly....nothing. Maybe having a job earlier in the year so I could have made changes sooner.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Well I lost a bunch of weight so a lot of my smaller clothes fit and I am trying to be more hip!!

32. What kept you sane?
Kendall and my friends

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
who knows????

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
the Republican race for the Presidential candidate

35. Who did you miss?
Kendall when she was at her dad's

36. Who was the best new person you met?

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
Never take anyone or anything for granted. Things can change in the blink of an eye! TELL PEOPLE HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THEM! Make sure they know you love them because tomorrow is NEVER a guarantee!!!

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"I've got sunsets to witness, dreams to dance with,
beaches to walk on and lovers to kiss,
there's a whole lot of world out there
that I can't wait to see
my best days are ahead of me"

Wow - December 6th....

Well, that is the last time I posted...I was not in the mood for blogging. I was down most of the month but now...I AM ALL BETTER!!!! I am happy and in a much better place.

On Dec. 14th I had to have a procedure - they found pre-cancerous cells on my cervix and I had to have them removed...I was pretty nervous about it but it was being done in the office and I have complete faith in OBGYN. I love him to pieces. So, I got that done and found out yesterday that all is well and they got all the cells and the margins were clean. I have to come back in 3 mos. for a check-up and then again every 6 mos. for a few years to just make sure all is well.

Another reason I was really down was because Christmas was looming over me. I knew I wasn't going to have my ladybug on Christmas eve night or Christmas morning. I was DREADING those 2 days...I tried to make the most of it.

I took off 12/23 and we had a fun morning of donuts and wrapping presents. WE left home and went to get our nails done. She got red polish with candycanes on each thumb and big toe. I got the same red polish on my toes and some fancy glitter polish she picked out for my fingers. We had a nice time and I saw one of my good friends that I hadn't seen in ages. Then we were off to College Station!!!! We were meeting R and J there at Santa's Wonderland. We were so excited to go! J had never been and R hadn't been in ages so I was excited to take them and excited to see them since we hadn't seen each other in 2 weeks and wouldn't be able to spend Christmas together...We had a blast! The kids played in the snow, rode the bull, saw the lights, and even saw the REAL Santa there walking around in his regular clothes!!! It was nice to see my honey too!

Saturday bug had to go home at 10am. I ran a few errands after and then had lunch with my parents. Then I saw KJ about 6 and gave her some last minute hugs and went home. I tried not to dwell on it. I watched 4 Christmases, The Family Stone, and How to Lose a guy in 10 days. Then I went to bed and tried to sleep late.

Sunday I started getting texts as early as 730 from my friends thinking about me. It was sweet but I was really trying to sleep late so the time would go by faster. I got up and started getting ready. I got a message that KJ wanted to come home at 11 instead of 12!!!! WOO HOO!!!! I got there at 11 on the dot and she wanted to show me all her presents. We left about 11:40 and went home. She opened all her presents and played with one or two and we went to mom's! We had lots of fun there too. By the time everyone left, it was 9pm and I really didn't feel like driving home so we decided to stay over. Sadly my baby's cough had gotten worse over the last few days (I had taken her to the dr. on 12/16) si I got up and made her an appt. for 9:30 in Kingwood. We quickly got ready and got to the dr.

They gave her some antibiotics so she could get better. We ran home, got showers and were off again. She had saved up $36 over the last few months from tooth fairy, and being cute and getting 100's on EVERY spelling test all year long. She wanted to go to Build-a-Bear. She got a polar bear with a cute dress on. We ate at Chick-Fil-A and then went home to PLAY WITH NEW PRESENTS!!! We did it all!! Shrinky Dinks, Nintendo DS games, paints, Wuggle Pets, you name it, we played it. We had fun....but alas, the fun had to end and she had to go back to her dad's because it is his week after all.

This week is a short one and for that I am glad. I got to see my monkey last night and we had fun. She has been out of daycare all week and home with her dad. She has a dentist appt. this afternoon and three loose teeth so I am anxiously awaiting the outcome of that.

Have a Happy New Year!!!!!!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

The Grinch

I normally love Christmas, but this year, not so much...since the divorce I have to split Christmas...well this year I don't get Christmas morning...I am having HUGE emotional problems with this...I can't imagine how awful this is going to be to not wake up with my baby girl on Christmas morning....I have to pass her back to her dad on Christmas Eve at 10am and don't get her back until noon on Christmas day...I am trying so so hard to not let her know that I am, well, FREAKING OUT. We have our tree up and I keep playing Christmas music in the car, but honestly, I don't know that I am doing that great od a job. I am an absolute wreck...
On top of that I have a few other things going on that are really, really bringing me down...I don't want to go into a lot of detail, but some are medical and some are personal. But regardless, they are not helping my mood...
I think tonight buggy and I will make a gingerbread house that Granny bought us and watch the Michael Buble Christmas special...maybe that will help take my mind off of everything else going on because right now, all I really want to do is get in bed and pull the covers over my head and stay there...indefinitely....
Just call me the GRINCH..