Thursday, December 9, 2010


It is December again!!! We had a great Thanksgiving us just here at home. We made a turkey and some sides and talked about the things we are thankful for. Over that weekend we went to Santa's Wonderland. We have been in the past, but Kendall did not remember it so it was like going for the first time all over again!!!

December is stacking up and is busy already. Kendall and I went to the Grinch on the 5th with Granny and she LOVED it. She has never seen the movie or read the book but had an idea what is was about. It was SO cute!!! I loved it and she did too. This is my last week of teaching for my student teaching. I have had some hard times and thought about giving up through this whole process. I think I was just really overwhelmed that I was being watched EVERY day... I am not good with pressure and someone watching over me. I am glad I am done and can get my own classroom now. When that will happen, who knows!! I have to observe three days next week and have two days of meetings and then I will be a FULLY CERTIFIED TEACHER!!!! You can't imagine how long I have been waiting to say those words. A decade maybe?????? Chris is done too and he is working on getting a job as well. I am stressed beyond all belief so we will see how the next month unfolds and PRAY, PRAY, PRAY!!!!

Kendall had her Girl Scouts Investiture Ceremony tonight! I am the troop leader. I think I did a good job :) The girls loved it and did SO well and followed directions!! BUT, all the moms AND dads and Siblings were there so it was stressful because I was being "watched". I want the parents to think I am doing a good job.

I have a problem sometimes with what people think of me. Not so much as a person, but the work I do. I try my hardest to do a great job and I want people to see that. I think that is why I was so overwhelmed with this student teaching thing. I don't take criticism well and there are times when you absolutely need to be, constructively, of course, but in the long run it is still criticism!!!

Tomorrow is the Winter Wonderland at K's school! It is going to be so fun! They are having food there and Santa and crafts and games! She is excited and I am too.

As for me overall, I feel very overwhelmed and pretty sad alot of the time. I try to be the best that I can be at everything I do and I DON'T live criticism (I know, I am ranting) but when someone in your life constantly is telling you that you are wrong and this person is full of negativity but does not see it, then you are going to have so many emotions. I love this person with all my heart, but GRRRRRRRR. I am so tired or being hurt!!!

Anyway, I will post more soon!!

Remember, Love is all you need...

1 comment:

  1. You did a fabulous job Niki. Absolutely fabulous - it was a really cute ceremony and meant a lot to the girls. Don't worry what people think of you! (I'm sure they are thinking only great thoughts!) Be proud of who you are and what you accomplish and give yourself the credit you deserve!