Weekend fun!

I had a busy week. I cleaned and work was busy. But, this weekend was SO nice!!

Friday night I went to my friend Laura's house. We have not hung out with each other in so long!!! I stopped and got some beer and headed over. She was cooking fajitas when I got there and fed me. She noticed that I had lost some weight - she actually noticed that I had lost a lot of weight. I am up to up to 17 lbs in 2 months. It was nice to see someone notice it. Other people are noticing too but I hadn't seen her since I lost any so it was nice of her to notice. We hung out for a few hours. I loved it. We even have plans this coming week for dinner.

Saturday morning I got up early and headed over to get my puppies. I can't keep them here in the apartment. It is not safe for me to walk them at night and if I have K here I don't feel safe leaving her in here alone. They are late night pee pee dogs so I just couldn't do it. So, off to the SPCA they went. K knew it was coming and her dad said she did really well after I left with them. I went back and picked her up for the weekend. We came home and relaxed and were lazy. We left later and went to the library. We got K all signed up for the summer reading program. Then we went Petco and looked around at all the animals. We headed to Walmart to get Granny a birthday cake. Yesterday Granny turned 69 and we were having a little family dinner. We had a nice time. Granny wanted to cook dinner (I still haven't figured out why she wanted to cook her own birthday dinner) and we had ribs and brisket.

This morning we got up and cleaned and did laundry. A little later we watched one of our fav movies, Tangled. I cleaned my bedroom (I still had some boxes). I ironed and cleaned and did dishes. I feel SUPER accomplished today. I still have some cleaning to do, but K is at dads this week so I have some time.

I still have not gotten everything moved out of the house yet so I am going to try and finish that Monday and Tuesday evening. I am ready to be done. I still need to get a storage unit for all the big stuff that won't fit in either apartment. Hopefully I will be all done moving storage stuff and apartment stuff by the end of this month!!

I am looking forward to a good and speedy week! I love weekends. I look forward to them. Plus we start our new visitation this week. The plan is that K will be with him starting Monday evening this week and he has her all week except Wednesday when I get her. I get her back on Monday after work and have her all week except Wednesday when he has her. We will keep this schedule and it will be in the divorce this way.

Here comes the sun......

Vacation :)

OK, I know I have been home for a week now, but I have been busy. Here is my vacation recap!!!

We got to Charleston on Wednesday evening. It was a nice flight! Kendall had a great time and slept a little. As we were landing she has a little pain in her left ear, but that didn't surprise me since she has had so many sinus and ear problems in the past. My sweet nephew was at the hotel when we got there and I got such a huge hug! Kendall couldn't get out of the car fast enough to get to her Joshy! We got checked in and upstairs. I was supposed to go out with Amanda for the bachelorette party but they had already gone downtown and I didn't want to take a cab down there. Josh wanted me to go with him and his friends, but I didn't want to be the only girl there. Curtis and Kristin decided to go too. So, we headed to Josh's apartment and then over to his friend Al's house. We hung out there for a little and then got a cab downtown. We went to this bar called Market Street Pub. It reminded me of a cool bar in San Antonio that isn't there anymore, but I loved it! We left there and went to a daiquiri bar - while we were there we ran into all the girls! We all ended up bat at Market Street. It was a blast! I had so much fun!!

Thursday was the rehearsal. We had to to go to the mall to get the boy's tuxs. We hung out there for awhile and then had some lunch. I had to run over to David's Bridal to drop K's dress off to be steamed. We headed over to Dunes West where the wedding was. The wedding party practiced what they needed to practice. We left there and headed over to Wild Wings for the rehearsal dinner. It was so nice. It was exactly what I pictured for Amanda and Josh. After all, it is his fav place of all! I hung out after at the bar with the bride, groom and their friends! It was a nice time.

Friday morning was super lazy. I went and got K's dress and then we headed to the wedding. She had to be there about 3:30 to get ready. It was so nice to be able to spend that time with Amanda! Then it was TIME! The wedding was PERFECT. A fairy tale. It was on a golf course on some water under a huge old tree at sunset. It was gorgeous and simple all at the same time. The reception was a blast and the two of them smiled the entire night. Of course, my little dancing machine danced the night away! She had a BLAST!!!

Saturday we got up and ready and headed to historical Charleston. We went on the ferry ride to Fort Sumpter. This is where the first battle of the Civil War was. I don't love to read about history, but I love to see history. It is amazing to know you are standing on such an important place in America's history. We went down to the slave markets after that. It is the only place that where slaves were allowed to work off the plantations. Basically it is just a big vendors market. We had dinner at Tommy Condon's which is an Irish Pub. It was different, but yummy. After dinner everyone but mom, dad, K and I went back to the hotel. The four of us decided to take a horse carriage ride through historic Charleston. It was so cool! I learned so much. We even saw the English Customs brokerage house. It is where the second and biggest reading of the Declaration of Independence was read.

Sunday was the beach! We headed down to Isle of Palms. We went to the surf shops first and got a few things. Then we headed to the beach. It was Curtis, Kristin, Max, Declan, Jacob, Maegan, K and I. I took K into the water and she had sooo much fun. I took her pretty deep. We were jumping waves and having so much fun. When the tide started coming in we decided to head back to the hotel. We all got cleaned up and met the rest of the family at Smoky Bones where Amanda works. Of course she wasn't there, but Tia, one of the bridesmaids was and she waited on us.

Monday we got up and ready and headed home. I was so ready to be home and in my house again, but I had such an AMAZING time. It was one of my fav all time vacations ever. I am ready to go back. I think it would be a nice couple vacation. It seemed to be a very romantic town.

I LOVE CHARLESTON!!!!!!!!

Here comes the sun!

ROCKSTAR!

I am a freaking ROCKSTAR!! I am slowly but surely starting to believe what my good friends have been telling me. They think I am great and that I underestimate and undervalue myself.

Well, I am starting to believe that I do and that I am way smarter than I give myself credit for.

The other day while moving I had an argument with a certain someone that was helping me and I told him to leave and he did. He left the hutch to KJ's dresser in the middle of the living room. I was very discouraged. It is HEAVY!!!!! But, I got off my pity wagon and went in the bedroom and you know what, I FREAKING DID IT!! I got that hutch up on the dresser and screwed it on and then moved the million pound dresser where it belongs. Now mind you, I have bruises on my arms from it, but I DID IT!!!

Tonight as I am packing for my trip, I realized that I have a bazillion pics on my SD card and if I don't download them then I am going to run out of space on the trip, like tomorrow on the plane... SOOOO, I download them all onto my external hard drive. Easy...Welllll, when it comes time to delete them, deleting was NOT an option and for the life of me I could not figure out why...I took the thing out of the computer and into the camera and still, it sawys protected card...I am FREAKING OUT at this point...I called and texted the EX because he is pretty computer savvy but no answer...more freaking out...I am almost in tears and then I realize I have no birth certificate or social for KJ for the trip...more freaking out...

I called my mommy and she is calling the airlines to see if I need any proof that she is mine. Still waiting on that answer...I sit back down and fiddle with the SD card some more and then I think to my self "HEY MORON, try googling protected card" I have had this camera for years and have not had this problem before so I know there is a fix. I went online and solved the problem in 2 seconds.

I did not need anyone else! I solved the problem on my own. I feel GREAT!!!!! I can do things for myself. I am not saying this is a huge accomplishment for many, but for me it is. Trust me. I freak out easily, ESPECIALLY when it comes to something to do with my camera or pictures. Those are GOLD to me.

Anyway, problem solved, I AM A ROCKSTAR!!!!!!!!!!! I am really proud of myself...

NOW...back to packing...almost done but have to get up at 5 to be at work at 7 to leave at 11 to get to the airport and be on a flight that leaves at 3...anyone else tired??? I am!!

HERE COMES THE SUN!!!!!

GOSH!!!

I am getting close to being done getting all my crap out of the house. Just need to work on a storage unit to get the stuff that didn't fit in my HUGE apartment LOL!!

Kendall and I will be out of town next week so I will get the storage unit and get that stuff out shortly after we get back.

I feel like rambling today.

I have a headache.

My friends are all at a scrapbook retreat this weekend. I was responsible and didn't go to save money for next week's trip.

NKOTBSB is tonight. I am going but I am just not in the mood. Maybe it will change once I get there, but I really just want to stay on the couch.

I FREAKING LOVE THE MUSIC CHANNELS ON DIRECTV (well 814 - modern country) to be exact. It is on ALL the time when I am here alone. I love music - it is in my soul, but country has my heart. It made me who I am today.

Who am I today?? Well, I am working on trying to believe in myself. I have some really great people helping me on my journey. They actually see me for who I am. Some of them tell me regularly that I am awesome. The problem is...well, I just don't believe them. I have been told for so long that I am not so that is kind of where my head is. I was even told again today how worthless and pathetic I was as a parent and a person. This person has been telling me this for YEARS. Case in point as to WHY I am divorcing said person...I just wish I would NOT let it get to me. I don't care what he thinks, but it still stings. I guess when you hear something for so long from the person that is supposed to love you most in the world, it sticks...

OK, enough of my yammering on. I miss my bug! She is with her daddy until Wednesday afternoon when I pick her up to head to the airport...That is a LONG time away. But, I have her for 6 days straight for the trip so it is fair.

On July 11th we start our new visitation schedule. He will get her from daycare that Monday after work and keep her until the next Monday morning except for Wednesday which is the other parent's day. Then, on the 18th we switch and I pick her up from school and have her until the next Monday morning except for Wednesday.

I am going to miss her. I don't really know how I am going to spend all this time with just me. I have never had so much time alone before. I don't want to go "out" or party or anything. That is not who I am, but I may hit dinner or a movie with friends.

I feel like crying today.

I don't really know why...

Well, I better go get ready for this concert.

ONWARD AND UPWARD!

Here comes the sun...

new tattoo

Well, I have been on my own now for a week. I have been gone for almost two months, but I have only been here for a week. I have NEVER lived alone. EVER. I moved out of my parent's house and into my apartment with my ex. This is really great and weird. So far I love it. I miss KJ terribly when she is not here with me, but I am SO much more relaxed. I have felt stressed and overwhelmed for SO long that I didn't know if I was ever going to be able to bounce back. But I am. I am trying to relax and be free and happy.

I went with one of my besties on Thursday who was recently divorced and we got new tattoos. I wanted some stars, something like a shooting star. I wanted it to mean something. I wanted it to represent the new chapter in my life. It was I wanted a reminder that I am shooting for the stars and I can be happy again. I showed a pic of something that I wanted to the artist and he made it into his own. I LOVE it. For several reasons. One is because it is all my own. No one else has anything like it. It is completely my own. I went to work the next day and I showed it to a coworker who is also a good friend for about 16 years. Her exact words were " I LOVE IT!! It looks so HAPPY and FREE!" YAY!!!! That is EXACTLY what I wanted!!!!!

HERE IT IS :)

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I don't have K this weekend. I may have some plans with another bestie on Friday night. This weekend is the summer scrapbook retreat but I am not going. K and I are leaving for Charleston next Wednesday for my baby boy's wedding so I am being responsible and I couldn't justify the extra $$$. BUT....Saturday night me and all my scrapbook besties are all heading to NKOTBSB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (New Kids on the Block and Back Street Boys for those of you who don't know). I am really excited!!!!!!!! I saw NKOTB two summers ago with my girls Andi and Julie and this year the three of us are going but adding Jayme and Michelle too!!!! I am so excited to hang with them. I don't get to see these four enough and I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!!

Next week I am super busy getting ready for the trip. I can't wait to see the Atlantic ocean again and take K to the beach and on her first plane ride. I am even more excited to watch my sweet baby be a flower girl for my Joshy and his sweet Amanda!!! I can't wait to see them get married!! Man I love that boy!!

HERE COMES THE FUN (sun)!!!!!!!!!!!!

MOVING DAY

YAY!!!!!!!! Tomorrow is moving day!!!!!!

Onward and upward people!!!!



HERE COMES THE SUN!!!

HAPPY

Sooo, I move into my apartment next Tuesday. I have started packing. Man does THAT suck. I am going to try and finish most of the major packing this saturday and of course start moving Tuesday and then move a little each day. My goal is to be DONE by Saturday the 18th.

It is a tiny but stressful, but you know what, I am HAPPY. I have not been this happy in YEARSSSSS. I am not stressed, I am not angry, I am not yelling at anyone. It is PEACEFUL. I am a pretty peaceful person (being an Aquarius and all), but there were several years that I did not find myself at peace. I am once again peaceful.

Kendall is doing well, she is getting excited about the move. We went and found our actual apartment the other day and she got super happy. I am ready! I wish I could move THIS weekend, but I can't afford it...It is an extra thirty something bucks a day.

I had dinner with some great friends last week and it was AWESOME. They are really good friends and I just don't see them enough. I had dinner with Liana last night and MAN, am I going to miss that girl. AND, tomorrow night I am supposed to have dinner with some other ladies. Friday night is a birthday dinner for my bestest cousin in the world and Saturday...more packing. BLECH!!! But Sat night some friends invited me out. Not sure if I will go, but who knows. Sunday we see "Rock of Ages" and then I get my baby girl back. I will prob be loading my car that night and getting prepared for Tuesday!!!!!!!

REMEMBER...HERE COMES THE SUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!